Physics and GIS
Yep, had exams in both classes. I have this love/hate relationship with Physics. I like to learn about it but hate being tested on it. Physics I prolly bombed (going to check on it after I post). GIS I think went well. A few days ago I realized one of the grad students I know is in the class, he's a geology grad student. Haven't really talked him since he finished his B.A., he kinda withdrew from all of us undergrads. I like both of my TAs for Physics and GIS. Kevin (GIS) is really nice and totally cool, same with Michael (Physics)...it's great when you get a Physics TA who can actually teach.
Four Square
I saw Keith (RA in Sewall), Kevin (Keith's bro), Nicole (RA in Libby/Keith's girlf) and Alexa today at lunch. (Alexa, if you are totally out of the loop, is my former roommate and good friend) I had grabbed lunch from Farrand and decided to eat out by the fountain near the UMC. Alexa was playing four square with this random group that always plays during lunch next to the fountain. I joined in. It was blast! I have not played four square since 6th grade (when I used to be totally hardcore and the only girl who'd play). It was just what I needed today. I think that is going to be my new lunch activity. One of the guys was yelling everyonce in a while "Play four square and win a hot dog!" or "Play four square and get a free puppy!! Hurry we don't know what we'll do with the little fellers at the end of the day..."
My Ipod
Is fixed! Omg. So happy. My laptop seems to be doing better as well. *knocks on wood or wood like biproducts* My Ipod just needed to be reset and then it was fixed. yay!
Movie and Rejection....the Matt saga
I really hate when I am like so pathetic that a guy gets his own saga. I should be a theater major because I am a total drama queen....well not really...I just tend to have guy sagas.
Okay Wallace and Gromit: Curse of the Were-Rabbit is an awesome movie. Really good. Go see it. Support Aardman films and the fact they are old school and still do real claymation. Plus it's Wallace and Gromit...how can you say no?
Matt and I had fun, I like hanging out with him.
That said, I woke up this morning to a letter that was slid under my door. Now it never a good sign when you find a letter under your door. Neatly my name was printed on the font, I slid my finger under the sealed envelope. Pulling it out the letter my heart sank slightly with the first line...
"Dear Stephanie,
This is not going to be a pleasent letter."
I think the first few times I skimmed over it, still not quite awake. I went and got ready for the day, brushed my teeth. Before packing my books up, I sat down and read it over. I was thinking that it is one of the most eloquent letters I've read....oh right duh, he's an English major...of course it would be. My brain still tried to skim over it, I guess I knew what it was about and just didn't want to read the words. And yes there were cliches but can you express the rejection of unrequited love without using them? He didn't use the "F" word. Thank goodness, I hate when "F" word comes up.....usually in the context "I just want to be friends". He did use the "G" word, that was a new one. No one has ever give me a letter that ended with "May God's own faith be with you". I did forced myself to re-read the letter when I returned to my room after classes, it's hard reading those types of letters.
And no, he's not a "typical male bastard" or "an asshole" or whatever we usually say when one us pals goes through a breakup or unrequited love. Not this time.
By the sounds of the letter, I am pretty sure he read my blog (*waves* Hi Matt.) And that is totally cool. I post for the reason that I am a total open book and usually can write more than I am able to speak. Which he also expressed in his letter that he is too much of a coward to say what is in the letter in person, I can totally relate.
The letter was also very sweet and very honest. I don't want to reproduce the whole letter here, that is not fair to either of us. But I do love this paragraph:
"You are smart and funny and beautiful and all the things those Hallmark cards you get from your grandmother say you are. It's a genuine pleasure to see you in my day. Your pop culture lore is encyclopedic. Your musical tastes are immaculate. And you know helluva lot about rocks and damnit, in my book, that makes you good people. You're a person the world is patiently waiting to be blessed, fully deserving and ready."
So here's what really funny....
I am pretty okay about the whole thing. It was weird. I walked across campus listening to Bjork and O-Hum and Kent not 'The Bitch Mix' or it's sister mix '04/04 or the not so bitchy bitch mix'. Not to say I didn't have my Rammstein moments today...
I think part of it was this came at a really good time. I just finished with exams, fall break is coming up, and honestly I was getting really tired of having a crush on someone...I do hate it. It's like "Fuck! I think you are cute damnit and I don't know what to do. Argh!" Sure it hurt, but mostly it's like "Ah...phew." Plus the letter and the whole situation are totally easy to deal with and I am okay.
I felt about the same excitement and thrill when I was walking to class this morning then I did when I figured I had a crush. I was doing a happy dance while I walked. Plus sunshine, Monarchs, and psycho campus squirrels make me smile.
I am feeling really creative today as well. I started drawing on myself during GIS. And was like waayy to ansty to stay in GIS lab the whole time. I am both hyper and happy right now. I have a new friend. Yay for no more crush. A little sad and hurt, but honestly I am overall extremely happy and well....Steppie-esc.
In Case You are Bored
http://www.angryalien.com/Watch the bunnies. It's Movie Re-Enactments in 30 Seconds with Bunnies. Lots of fun extras at the end of most of the films too.
Fall Break
Woot! Now I have a few days off, here are the plans.
Thursday - Driving to Estes Park to see my mom. I need to wrap her Birthday present.
Friday - Jennifer (she lives on my floor, one of my other new friends) and I are going to Colorado Mills in Lakewood. Stop by my house and drop stuff off and pick stuff up and then going shopping for jeans. Then Matt and I are going to see Sleater-Kinney and Matson Jones.
Saturday - DJing of course. Then going to hang out with Jason (former RA/Germany J) and we are going to trade music and catch up at this swank mansion he is house sitting. Then Rachel and I are going to see Gogol Bordello.
Might see Daniel, Londyn, and Trav and all the other people I want to catch up with.
Okay I am going to clean so I can rearrange my room, which I have been wanting to do for a while....
Current Mood: Happy
Current Music: "Weird" - Clem Snide
(you tell me your different, you tell me strange, you tell me there is something wrong with your brain, so your mother found God, your dad likes to drink, but you're not as weird as you'd like me to think)
3 Kommentare:
I am really glad that you are happy. Crushing can be fun, but it can also quickly turn into a pain in the butt. It is brave for people to really say what they feel and if Matt reads this (I know I don't know you but still) I think it is awesome that he could let you know. Sometimes writing it is better than face to face because then you can say what you need to say and the person can read it and there are no emotional interruptions.
I am glad you are happy. :)
Say hi to Lakewood for me. woot. See you at T-giving! :D
Yeah, it's cool that he was astute enough to realize you had a crush and brave enough to deal with it. That unfortunately makes him even cooler, which can sometimes make it a bit more difficult. But he sounds like a nice guy, except that he called you "good people," a turn of phrase which I have a personal vendetta against. ^_^ And btw, the bunnies were hilarious.
I'm glad things worked out well for you.
BTW, despite the fact I'm throwing a party that you so graciously declined to come to on Saturday, I'm envious of your getting to see Gogol Bordello. Have fun!
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