*smiles* Happy......ish

First, 1190 made all the money we needed for the pledge drive. woot!

Seond, I am total copp-out on this getting my butt in gear crap. I'm working on it. That is why happy has an "ish" today.

:)

I talked to Jeff today. He's one of the other DJs at the station...he does the total cool Acid Lounge show. He mention he's been keeping up with what is becoming be know as the "Ben saga" via my blog. I think it's pretty cool he's been reading. It is a fairly long saga. *laughs*

I wonder who else reads. *waves to people she knows who are reading* Give me any tips, thoughts or ideas either in person or as comment if you feel like it. :)

So Ben. I swear I am not obsessive stalker or anything, I am just keeping you all updated on everything. And we all know that I admit when I am a obsessive stalker, but I have given up that habit....which is now reserved for celebs.

Anyway the BBQ went well. I now know that I do not feel anything for Tom, that Mike has been trying to hit on me and my god hell no not in a million years and you were the last man on earth because you creep me out like none other.....so basically flat out no for Mike as well, and I do like Ben. I feel so silly for liking Ben because I know he doesn't like me back but I can't help it.

At the BBQ I had a beer and a some food and then sat on the couch between Ben and Mike (Tom sat in a chair next to Mike). So the combination of football and beer and lack of sleep made me sooooo tired. I was trying to find a comfortable position that I could fall asleep in, but it was hard to do. So I put my head on Ben's shoulder/arm....and fell asleep for most of the game. So two thoughts occur to me, one he is being polite and he doesn't want to shake me off....most likely. And two...well no there is no thought two....I think he was just being nice in letting me snuggle on his arm and sleep. I hope it didn't make him unfomfortable....and hopefully he is not saying "oh shit, what is she doing?". But he is comfy and smells so good....geez it drives me crazy.
In the end we were the only ones who showed up, and I liked it that way. It was fun.

I just got back from hanging out with Ben in Denver. I think it so cute that he is so wonderful and amazing and just plain sexy and he doesn't even realize it. I felt a bit of tension like that he wanted to talk about what is or isn't going on between us...but it never got brought up. And I like the fact that nothing is forced right now....we just go with the flow. When the time is right to talk about it....we will. I had so much fun with him. Like I said he is just adorable and I really like him for who he is....even when he is being a bitch or a smart ass. ;) I like it all. And what was really funny is we are both sleep deprived and totally batty on the bus ride back. *laughs*

:)

And I started making a Holiday pressie for Ben. Cause it will take forever to get done. I am crocheting a blue scarf for him out of this really pretty and super soft dark blue yarn. I hope he likes it. I thought it be a nice gift.

Well I should head off to bed and get some sleep. *smiles* me happy.