Depressed Indie Girl

I had the best day today. Past couple days have been so much better. yay for antibotics (kay my throat hurts right now but I think it's because I have been happy and able to talk today).

So last night I had this wacky dream....really weird. I had a dream that somehow I got my hands a short note I'd written in the future just before I died. It was weird. Like I found out what had happened in the rest of my life.

In the note I apparently went on describe that I went to grad school and ended up working at a bunch of different Universities doing research (including Uni of Nevada at Vegas doing forensics research...ie I've been watching too much CSI), some of the other Univesities were like Utah, Cali, Arizona (both ASU and AU), mostly western colleges, although I think Vermont and NY may have been on the list.

So then I went on to work for NASA and was accepted to be an astronaut but then when they told me I was like "oh no, I am going to teach!". I decided that instead I'd rather be a high school German teacher. (okay WTF, I want to be an astronaut or at least try as hard as I can to be) Anyway (my waking personality aside), I was this apparently amazing teacher and all my students loved me, and I also taught elementary for a while. Anyway I retired and then worked at King Soopers in my old age just because I am a people person. I died happy...alone, but lots of cats. I did get this great sense that I died extremely happy and fufilled.

The other part of my dream involved Richard (the other Diversity Mentor). In my dream a gypsy fortune teller told us that if either one of us fell off a building to hold hands with the other and we wouldn't get hurt. Somehow in the dream we were on the roof of Will Vill (watching tornadoes....don't ask me why) and Richard jokingly pushed me and I fell of the building and as I fell off the edge, he jumped off the building and caught my hand and we fell and we weren't hurt. Richard was wearing the same red shirt in my dream that he wore today.

So that was my dream.

Today I had an exam in my geology class. I woke up early and studied some more. When I was in the library, I ran into Kate (geology major) and she is taking Physics and Geophysics with me next semester. Took the exam which wasn't too bad I think.

Before the exam I was sitting in my seat just relaxing and waiting for Alan to pass out all the tests. I was listening to these guys talking behind me. They were retelling their sexual conquests (one of some chick in Hallett) and alcoholic misadventures. One of the guys says "Yeah, I need to start saving up to go to Germany. I am down like $2,000. I'll have to cut back from going to the bars from 4-5 nights to 2-3. Maybe I'll start next week..." Another one says "Well man, you need to make some sacrifices sometimes..."

This made me realize why some people hate Boulder. If I had $2,000 to blow, I would buy that telescope I've been wanting for so long (mmmm.....12" Meade....) or if I had to blow it on something you can't keep (like this kid does), I'd take all my friends out and have fun.

Some CU-Students I swear.

I also realized that I am fairly abnormal on this campus. I may go to a bar, maybe once a semester at best. I've been drunk like 3 times and I don't like it. I drink 1-2 beers, if I drink at all.

I then went to Target to pick up my medications. Was able to magically have the Hop show up just in time, each time I needed to catch it. I stopped in at Joann's first and picked up some crochet materials. Then I went to Target, my medication was under "Jennifer" for some reason. Everything else was right, my last name, DOB, doctor's name....but the nurse had called it in under "Jennifer". Luckily the ladies at the pharmacy recognized me (which may not be a totally good thing...).

The reason I had to pick up new meds. I am not going on Paxil. Auntie Kate nearly had a heart attack when she heard I'd go on Paxil. So I am going on Lexipro instead. Same idea, not so many side effects or addictiveness. Start tomorrow, stay tuned for hallucinations...I mean updates. ;)

Talked my dad the other night and he asked if I was depressed or if I needed to see a counselor. Um, I've spent the past two weeks essentially sleeping all day because of migraines and sickness...Migraines may make me depressed. What I need is to get better not a shrink.

I swear I had become the poster child for the depressed indie girl these past few weeks. Well I am starting to get better *knock on wood* and back to my happy normal self.

I have learned over these past two weeks that I am an even BIGGER geek than I thought. When I can't sleep due to migraines, I tend to watch TV. Okay so I love Cartoon Network. Been watching a ton of The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy lately.

So there is the character (one of my favs in the show), Hos Delgado. Who is a cross between Ash (Bruce Campbell's character from "Army of Darkness" & "Evil Dead") and Snake Plissken (Kurt Russell's character from "Escape from New York").

I am geek for knowing that.

I am more of geek for recognizing that the voice is done by Dietrich Bader. He's most well known for his roles as Oswald on "Drew Carrey Show" and Rex in "Napoleon Dynamite".

What makes me the ultimate geek was recognizing that the voice of "Squid Hat" in the takeoff episodes of Harry Potter ("Nigel Planter") was none other than Weird "Al" Yankovic. I even double checked to make sure I wasn't absolutely nuts. It's true.
Yes, my geekiness scares even me.

I will finally explain why there are pictures of wolves at the top of my post. Lionel had told me about the Mission Wolf talk that was going on tonight in the UMC. So I invited Rachel from my floor and we went. I got see Lionel too, he said Hi and gave me a hug. I was happy to see him. I also got to talk to Morgan and wave at Sam. Anyway at the presentation, they have real wolves that they bring and let you meet. Of course I was a total idiot and forgot to bring my camera. Dumbass. But I got to pet a wolf. It was amazing. I had wolf hair on my pants when we got up to leave. Their eyes were amazing. When one of the wolves looked at me, I was stunned. I really want to go on one of their trips down there and camp out. That would be amazing.

Kay I am going to head off to bed.

Current Music: This awesome Spanish music Rachel (DU Rachel) gave me. I dunno what it is, but I've been listening to it alot. It's like Spanish rock.
Current Mood: Happy and a wee bit sleepy.