I was so sick today that I literally couldn't stand up. My dizziness was so bad and when combined with my weakness. I nearly collapsed so many times.
I am really pissed at the RA staff right now too, because they were supposed to help set up, facilitate, and take down the "Tunnel of Oppression" program that the diversity staff was putting on. The RA staff is supposed to be helping us as a co-program. The diversity staff is small, there are 4 of us. Richard and Salina were working on it since 1pm, I am so sick that I waan't able to get enough energy to help set up until 4ish (program started at 6). I think the only RAs that really helped out, stayed for their whole shifts were Owen, Miles, and Vernon. Most of the RAs came briefly, none of the RAs really helped us set up and Vernon was the only one there to help us to take down. Damn slackers. They have no excuse, I am insanely sick and so behind on schoolwork...wtf, why weren't they there to help us?
Oh did I get to hang out with some of the fun gay boys though and laugh, I miss my gay boys, esp Matty...I wish he hadn't moved to Idaho.
I am going to medicate myself to nth degree (Nyquil, asprin, meclizine...) and go to bed.
And I decided since it takes far too much work and energy and I always seem to be on the losing end of things. No dating for me. Screw it. I will just spend another year alone. I prolly would have anyway. No one seems to notice me or care and there is just less drama if I admit it now. I mean most guys see me as the "great girl buddy just not a girlfriend" so I'll just go with it. A guy is going to have to be pretty damn blatent to get my attention at this point.
Abonnieren
Kommentare zum Post (Atom)
2 Kommentare:
Go team pessimism, eh? I wouldn't give up just yet, though. It gets boring, dontcha know. It's much more entertaining, if occasionally painful, to stay in the game.
Sorry if that didn't help- I'm feeling a little down on the love-thing myself. But I <3 you.
And don't you love the guys that say, "Oh come on, any guy would love to date you!" but of course, they mean themselves excluded. Like, that's a given, obviously. Fuckers. Not that I'm a bitter. And when I take over the world, yes, there will be a catalogue. I like the CD cover. And when I remember, I'll bug you for a copy. And of course no one else was putting forth effort, the only people who work and "do stuff" are the people who are already stressed out and "overly fucking busy" as I told someone the other day. Love you lots, sorry you got the plague :(
-- Lots of hugs from your friend in illness, Londyn
Kommentar veröffentlichen