On being single.

So while I am here posting, I might as well go at it. I love being single. (*sees everyone roll their eyes and mouth 'yeah right'*) No honestly, I do. This is the best.

Okay quick note before I get into it, went to Cherry Blossom Festival in Denver today and I got to go to both Pacfic Mercantile (in Sakura Square) and Pacific Ocean Food Market (off of Federal). I love it.

Alright so here's what I began to realize in since my decleration of singleness.

I know I have a fear of being forgotten, so I think I that I why I am an open book. You want to know, I will tell you. (I have posted on this fact before). This is why I am a very chatty person. I will strike up conversation with everyone. I like to connect with people. Most of the time. I also like to see the world and observe. This is why when I do not feel like connecting with people I am a very very quiet observer.
However I do realize that this may make me seem pushy to be very chatty like I am.

One thing I am begining to see more of is what I want in my supposed dream guy. (Here I go with the princess complex...um just ask me if you don't get the ref). I've looked around and analyzed past crushes, realtionships, interactions...and I am seeing more and more of what I need.

I need a reader, a man who is on a quest for knowledge. I love bookstores, reading, the smell of an old paperback. I need a guy who is the same way.

I need a man who is as weird as I am. Demented sense of humor goes along with this one, if you think singing undead, Kaga's outfits, and Kids in the Hall is funny, then it's getting close to my bizzare sense of humor. It is just boring to have a middle of the road, no sense of passion for anything, kind of guy. I pass on guys who are not weird enough for me. My friends and I always joked that a guy who owned and named a lawn gnome was my dream guy.

I need kindness and patience. Not to have to myself but someone who is nice to a sweet little old lady or the clerk at the store or the child crying. Super polite and friendly goes a long way.

I need the non-narcissist. I really have problems with people who have tremendous egos or are self-involved. Some level of ego and self-esteem is healthy but everything in moderation, especially moderation.

I need an open mind. If I am going to date a guy, they have to be at least willing to try thing and interact with other that maybe out of his comfort zone. You can't handle hanging out with my proud gay and lesbian friends, you won't be seeing me. Not willing to explore other cultures, sorry buddy.

I need a man who will challenge me.

But right now, I love being single. I am so happy not to be tied to a relationship or not have any silly crushes. It is such a free feeling, it's wonderful. And both time and money saving. :) Always a bonus. More time to consentrate on improving myself and solving my issues. If you can't love yourself, how do you expect someone else to love you? Right now, I only like me....sorta. It's getting better everyday though...and I am all the happier for it.