Goth kid

I am totally going to sound like a sad emo goth kid when I say this but....

"All I feel is pain."

I am so emotionally ripped to shreads and stressed out. I feel like a frail doll that is about to fall apart at the seems and is so limp that it makes you wonder if it's a doll or bundled rag.

And no, I don't want to chat or talk about it, becasue despite what you might think, you won't get it and I won't be able to explain to a degree where talking to you is going to be useful.

I think what I need is a guy to curl up with who will let me cry until I have no more tears. I need that warmth and reassurance that not all interactions with men are completly painful becuase right now with every male friendship, that I have in Boulder (RAs excepted), it feels that way. However, I don't know of any guy who would let me do that, if I am mistaken, please let me know.
And I actually don't need it imediately but I am soon as everything I need to get done is complete, I will.

And don't be suprised if I am toally anti-social the next few weeks.