A side note....to previous post.

Hi to anyone who is reading this from Ben's Livejournal. Please feel free to post comments and ask questions.

And the question has come up with my friends, have I told Ben about Tom? And frankly no. Nothing has happened between Tom and I, honestly I don't want anything to happen. He is just a friend and I want it to stay that way, even if he didn't have a girlfriend...I don't think that I'd date him. (I understand that is a major shift from last week's posts) But if Ben asks me about it, I will tell him about it. And Tom is just a friend so I don't think i need to bring it up.

F--k I am so confused. Hormones? Perhaps...but I am so torn with what is going on with Ben. I wish Ben and I could talk about this tonight. Man, he is so great to hang out with. Anyway I think it is my extreme exaustion that is making me all strung out and nervous about the whole thing. I get total random nervousness with Ben. Plus why would he even be interested in me anyway? I am just some random, not very attractive chick who just happened to ask him out.

I don't want to force anything (sometimes it may sound like I do but I don't, if nothing is truely there is isn't there), I just want to give it time. And I would like to go out on Thursday, hopefully he'll give me the chance to hang out with him more.


Song for the night...and for some reason constantly stuck in my head...

I doubt something like the lyrics describe will ever happen to me.

But I wish I could tell Ben "Dakishmetainoi" (I just want to hold you) because that is mostly how I feel when I am around him. And "Tsuyogatteru soredakenano mitsukedashite" (I'm only acting strong, that's all it is, please see through it) for that matter.

Chobits - "Let me be with you"
Japanese lyrics....

Futari ga kitto deaeruyouna mahou wo kakete
Ryoute wo sotto kasanetehora hohoemukara

Honto no kimochi kitsukanai furishite
Totsuzen futari koi ni ochitano
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Dakishimetaino

Imamade zutto ienaimama kakushitetano
Tsuyogatteru soredakenano mitsukedashite

Machiawasemade atogofun mattete
Sonoatofutari koi ni ochitano
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Nakitakunaruno

Tsunaidate wo sotto hanasutoki
Fuan ni naruno Fuan ni naruno
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Let Me Be With You
Dakishimetainoni
Dakishimetainoni