Depressed

Things have been going downhill since Monday and now with current friendships with some folks, things just seem to be getting worse. I try to look on the bright side of things however grim but some things and people have thrown me for a bit of a loop. I really want to respond to it but I doubt I can explain myself sufficently. And what is really bad is that I need to explain myself because things are percieved all wrong. I'm afraid I can't do any better explaining it in person either. My brain is just scrambled eggs with this issue right now, like I can recover bits and pieces I want to say but it borderlines on not making sense...and on top of that I can't write that well.

And I'd wait until I can see a clearer picture of things but I am afraid it'll just complicate the matter to wait. Time is an enemy in this response.

I need someone to talk to because I am about to cry it has me so strung out but currently no one is online who could help me...well one person is but he is so busy and I don't want to bother him....again.