Not sure and it's okay

Before I delve into it, tonight we had a sex ed speaker so I have all these funny condoms that they gave the RAs. Who knew they made Passion Fruit flavored lube and Cola condoms. Cracks me up, the science of flavored condoms and lube...

Anyway I talked to Ben again tonight and the question came up (and I didn't really ment to do it) about how he actually feels about me. And his response was about the same as what mine used to be/kinda still is. That he really has fun with me, but he isn't sure if he likes me, or can make that next leap, or whatever. And I totally understand. If something happens, great but I am not going to try and force anything. If he doesn't care about me (or vis versa), then both of us are wasting our time. And although I can admit that I have a crush on him, I am still unsure myself about what I want or what will happen. One thing I really like is the fact that he can be honest and doesn't mind if I ask questions. I can just hope that something might happen and wait and see. I'll I ever hope for is a chance and he is giving me that which is great.

I debating if I should stay up and finish Physics or go to bed. I think I am going to go to bed, and force myself to get up in 4 hours. :-p I'll put a Dew in the fridge for in the morning.