Good Concert....

I know I am posting at 1 in the morning, should be in bed, blah blah blah...

Alright so I just got back from the Streets concert, sweet stuff. It was a ton of fun. I was waiting outside the Fox for Jason (and his friend David) when Mike ('nuther DJ @ 1190) came up and said hi. I was actually pretty glad to see him, it took the edge off on seeing Jason. I mean don't get me wrong, I was really glad to see him and all but I just didn't know what to expect from myself. I'm not sure how to explain it, I am over the whole ask him out thing and I dunno, just haven't seen him in a while, that's all. It was funny though, I envision either running into Mike or another guy from 1190 at before the concert. Guy who's chasing after me, meet guy who rejected me. :) David was cool, a little quiet, I got to talk to him briefly, we share a common bond...being lab lackies and cleaning beakers. Doubt he uses HF or HBr though but he does get to play with live things which is cool.

Daniel is right, I can relate to anyone.

So since I really don't mind if he reads this...let's talk about Jason. I do have to say he looked super hot in his shirt, jeans combo but he always does look good. But I have gotten it out of my system. I don't know what it was but I think it's the fact that our frienship has evolved another level. He's my music/movies/concert friend. He rocks like all my other buds. When I saw him I felt nothing...which is a good thing. Plus he talked to me alot more which I like becasue I like people opening up to me.

I love hearing little things or stories or about their day, it interests me. Like meeting people's families and learing about them. I think it is the fact that I am always thinking about mortality, that's why I am so open with my thoughts and feelings, my fear is I will experience something grand, a little thing and never be able to share it. My fear is that I may go my life and not once single person could say something deeply personal or something I thought amazing when I am not there.

One thing that bothers me sometimes is that people are not willing to share something, I think it is a response to have been being hurt, they don't want to open up because they are afraid to get hurt again.

What can I say, I am a people person....comes with being a Leo and a Steppie, I suppose.

One more thing about Jason and then I am going to bed. I have done this before with people I esp noticed it with him, I am VERY aware of my actions, almost obsessively so...it's like if I plan and calculate and watch what I do people will approve of me more. I am so glad to say though that I dropped that "aware of my actions" thing a while ago with him. It's an f'that, I do what I wanna do and I say what I wanna say...take or leave it buster. Tonight whould have been really bizzare and not fun for me if I didn't let loose.

I did let loose(jumping, bumpin, screaming the lyrics to "Fit but you know it", the usually steppie), I also got checked out by several guys who would bump into me or dance next to me.

Ahhh concert creeps, loonies, and hotties.